3/7/12 Entry

The big painting is done! Finally, now I just have to get through the essay, and everything will be okay. I just don't know how I'm going to do that. It's like every time I try to write, even though I have notes and know what I need to include, I trip up on the words and don't know how to express what I mean. I don't know if I'm writing too casually or using too many words. I'm scared that my ideas aren't well organized and that it will sound like everything is out of place. I'm going to go to the media center during lunch tomorrow without talking to anyone, and I will rush home after school so that I can get home early, and work while no one else is home. Right now I seriously need to turn up the volume on my music because it feels like everyone is making SO MUCH NOISE. I can't concentrate.

Okay, I will finish up this entry and go back to my doom-I mean, to my essay.

3/6/12 Entry

I took my three small paintings to school  so I wouldn't have to take all four of them on the same day. So I turned that in, got that out of the way. My last painting is almost done, I only need to put in a few more details and it will be complete! I also need to finish up the essay, and soon! I'm so worried and stressed out! I'm scared that it will not come out okay or I won't finish it on time. Or both. I feel like I'm on the verge of having a nervous breakdown over this. I swear, everything is going to be fine if I can just get through this week. It's like I'm counting down the days but also dreading them.

3/4/12 Entry

So last night I wrote a lot for my report, but I have to type it up on the computer. I'm going to try to do that ASAP but I have so much Homework to do today, that I doubt I'll have a chance. After I'm done with that, I'm going to leave it along for a day and then go back to it and do some editing.
That sounds like a good plan.

I'm going to put in some more time for my painting, especially on those break days before editing my report, so I can hopefully finish both things at the same time.

3/3/12 Entry

I've been working a lot more on the painting, it looks great! I don´t think I was this happy when the other ones started turning out well... I guess this one is just more special to me. More personal.

I' also progressed on the essay, idea-wise at least. I'm going to have a couple hours to kill tonight, so I'll try to start tying everything up into actual paragraphs and such.

It's hard cause everyone expects my project t be so good, my parents, my friends, my mentor... It's just like, hehe, no pressure...