3/7/12 Entry

The big painting is done! Finally, now I just have to get through the essay, and everything will be okay. I just don't know how I'm going to do that. It's like every time I try to write, even though I have notes and know what I need to include, I trip up on the words and don't know how to express what I mean. I don't know if I'm writing too casually or using too many words. I'm scared that my ideas aren't well organized and that it will sound like everything is out of place. I'm going to go to the media center during lunch tomorrow without talking to anyone, and I will rush home after school so that I can get home early, and work while no one else is home. Right now I seriously need to turn up the volume on my music because it feels like everyone is making SO MUCH NOISE. I can't concentrate.

Okay, I will finish up this entry and go back to my doom-I mean, to my essay.

3/6/12 Entry

I took my three small paintings to school  so I wouldn't have to take all four of them on the same day. So I turned that in, got that out of the way. My last painting is almost done, I only need to put in a few more details and it will be complete! I also need to finish up the essay, and soon! I'm so worried and stressed out! I'm scared that it will not come out okay or I won't finish it on time. Or both. I feel like I'm on the verge of having a nervous breakdown over this. I swear, everything is going to be fine if I can just get through this week. It's like I'm counting down the days but also dreading them.

3/4/12 Entry

So last night I wrote a lot for my report, but I have to type it up on the computer. I'm going to try to do that ASAP but I have so much Homework to do today, that I doubt I'll have a chance. After I'm done with that, I'm going to leave it along for a day and then go back to it and do some editing.
That sounds like a good plan.

I'm going to put in some more time for my painting, especially on those break days before editing my report, so I can hopefully finish both things at the same time.

3/3/12 Entry

I've been working a lot more on the painting, it looks great! I don´t think I was this happy when the other ones started turning out well... I guess this one is just more special to me. More personal.

I' also progressed on the essay, idea-wise at least. I'm going to have a couple hours to kill tonight, so I'll try to start tying everything up into actual paragraphs and such.

It's hard cause everyone expects my project t be so good, my parents, my friends, my mentor... It's just like, hehe, no pressure...

2/28/12 Entry

I've written some ideas down for my essay so that when I start to write it properly I can know what to include. I'll be thinking about it in case I've forgot anything, I can just add it later. I hope I don't go over the word count. The minimum is 1,500 and the max is 3,500. I know some kids dread thinking that they have to get to 1,500 words but knowing me, I'm scared of going over. I just write so much when I do formal writing. And I have a lot to say about this project.

The only problem about doing the essay is that this weeks seems to be Give-Tons-Of-Work-At-School week. And we have a school event coming up that I have to go to, so that will take up some of my time too. Oh, poo.

2/27/12 Entry

I went to talk to my mentor today and got help on how to start and plan out my essay. We broke it down into steps so that I do a little bit each day. So now it doesn't seem as scary.

And I feel so accomplished, I did the title page and the table of contents! Yay, go me. 

Tomorrow I'm going to write down some ideas for the different sections of the essay, and on Thursday probably I'll start actually writing the narrative. 

Then I'll leave it alone for a day, edit it, leave it and then do the final corrections and (hopefully) end up with a good report to hand in.

The painting is also looking good, and i've done a lot of it in just two sittings, which goes great schedule-wise, So everything is good.

2/26/12 Entry

I'v realized that doing this project has taught me one very important thing. That is, don't bite off more than you can chew. Or more like, don't bite off more than you will chew before you get bored. I mean, I should have realized that I would get a tad bored of everything halfway through and put it on hold for a month and a half, loosing a whole bunch of time, having to cram in everything into the last two weeks, and stressing myself out about essays and paintings and whatnot. Really, I should have just known.

If I could go back..... No. If I went back, I'd probably do the exact same thing. Just because I love how everything has turned out so far. Now I just know for next time. Note to self: Don't take on so much work.